Baby coming 2024...

August 12, 2023

That’s it that’s the post haha. 

No but God is good, so so good. And He answers prayers and confirms that little feeling inside, you know the one. 

So I started writing this post before it was true if you can believe that. I have a screen shot of me typing this very message at 2:22am on August 12th 2023. And I am reminded of the peace I felt after this last miscarriage like God has got me and we’re going to be alright. 

Fast forward to 2024, I’m moving forward in my PhD program, we have bought our first home. A beautiful home that we can grow into and enjoy together. And we are expecting! I am pregnant, well I have been pregnant for some time haha. But I finally feel secure enough to let you in on what’s been happening. 

I am learning that declaring things in prayer, making your requests known to God in your words is a powerful tool. But writing it down as if it has already happened, as if you trust God soooo much. You know it will be so that’s a whole other level. That’s faith, that’s trust, that’s belief. And I believe. In Jesus name. I believe. 

Amen 

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April 4, 2024

Talk about timeline! 

I wrote this in August 2023 and it is now April 2024.

In October we signed the contract for our house to be built. 

In November I had a dream that I saw the faintest positive pregnancy test. 

And in December I had a dream that God told me/showed me I would be pregnant that month. He woke me up out of my sleep to write it in my dream journal and I did! Maybe that’ll be the next blog post. I still read it in awe. 

Dec 30th, 2023 after coming back from Christmas with my fam in SC and visiting my dad who has dementia in TX. Those dreams became my reality. And I joyfully, though cautiously told my husband we are pregnant for the 3rd time. I was so excited but pregnancy after loss is SO hard. I just keep feeling God tell me this is to be celebrated! 

So we keep celebrating. Every milestone, every check up! Every day! 

I have lived in answered prayers before, but none quite as miraculous as this one. People love to say everything in His time. God‘s timing is perfect. And that is true. I also think that it’s OK to mourn the waiting, and to mourn the losses while you can still be grateful for each day. 

If I can leave you with anything, I leave you with this. I asked a friend recently how they feel God speaks to them the clearest or the most because for me, that’s through dreams, and sitting quietly with my emotions, so stillness. And in those moments of wishing, hoping, wondering, sadness, depression, anger etc., holding on to how God shows up for me was how I got through. Having a strong support system that I could rely on who would help bring me back to center was also crucial. Just being still or quiet, reading my Bible and seeing God in the moments of each day continued to speak to me. He continues to speak to me and I cherish those moments.

This doesn’t mean life will be perfect from here on out. That’s not how life works. But we celebrate because this and all of the other times that God has shown up in my life in a way that I cannot explain have shown me that all will be well.

I hope that this snippet in my life serves as an example that God‘s grace is sufficient. It has shown me that waiting as difficult as it may be and as hard as loss can be, it was all for the glory of God. Everything that we go through in life is for God’s glory and to speak to others, and I hope and pray that this is an example to even one person that God is good.

So I will get off my soapbox now lol. I am overjoyed each day, and so thankful!

Thank you for your prayers and for the thoughts and kind words that you’ve sent our way. We have felt them, we feel them, and we cannot wait to meet our baby this Summer!

XOXO

Erica M.